My life story

 My life story 

I am so tiny

Microscopic in origin 

Where did I come from 

No one will know and no one to believe 

I am so widespread 

An international itinerant

On you, in you 

Entered the world you lived in for eternity

I am so fatal

My Love is contiguous 

A Friend or fiend 

No racist no biased no bigotry like humans

I am so memorable

My survivor instincts

A killer or reliever ( from long-life pains)

Going deep down in the human history

I am so awakened 

My spiritual aspect

Spiky or round (like yin and yan)

I made it happen the Insightful Realization of human birth 

This is your puny, vagabond, close lover COVID-19

                                        Aarushi 

Apology

 I am sitting on a beach 

And admiring nature’s work.

I m loitering in my thoughts 

And scanning with a smirk.

My eyes stopped and met

Few limbs slithering on the sand.

Body parts joined incorrectly.

Was god inebriated or some kind of revenge? 

But the twisted torso holding head so high

Goggle on and no complain no shy

The lustful eyes I am wearing on me

Started to well in the tears of repent

I couldn’t believe 

How could I hate my fate?

How could I be a selfish mate?

How could I take my body soul for granted?

How could I ask for more than I ever wanted?

Then n there the attitude of gratitude took over me

I felt the tinge of remorse

I am sorry for asking more 

I am sorry for acting like a whore.

My desires, my fears,  and my ego of taking no rejection.

I was bashful, remorseful, and regretful so deeply

That My soul instantly apologized this universe 

This life is an opportunity and not a curse.

Do what you love and if you can’t 

Then love what you do.

                                            Aarushi 

ए माँ तेरी छाँव में हम बच्चे ही रह गए

ए माँ तेरी छाँव में

हम बच्चे ही रह गये

जमाने ने पकड़ाया हमें झूठ का दामन

पर हम जमाने में अकेले और सच्चे ही रह गए 

 ए माँ तेरी छाँव में हम बच्चे ही रह गए 

समझदारों की भीड़ में खो दिया अपने आपको 

फिर भी ना जाने क्यूँ हम कच्चे ही रह गए 

ए माँ तेरी छाँव में हम बच्चे ही रह गए 

सही ग़लत का तालाब मेरा ख़ाली और सूखा था 

उन ग़लतियों के तालाब को हम भरे चले गए

ए माँ तेरी छाँव में हम बच्चे ही रह गए 

अहसानो से ज़्यादा अहसासों पर ज़ोर था

पर नादानियों के बोझ तले हम दबते रह गये

ए माँ तेरी छाँव में हम बच्चे ही रह गए 

दिल की मिलकियत जब कर गयी फ़तह दिमाग़ी बाज़ियों को 

ए दिल ए आशिक़ हम सब सितम सह गए 

ए माँ तेरी छाँव में हम बच्चे ही रह गए 

जिसके दीदार को तरसती थी आँखें 

वो ढूँढते थे आंसू और हम हँसते ही रह गए

ए माँ तेरी छाँव में हम बच्चे ही रह गए 

अब बदल गए वो जिन्होंने बदली थी मेरी दुनिया

सितम ग़र आशिक़ ना कहकर भी सब कुछ कह गये

ए माँ तेरी छाँव में हम बच्चे ही रह गए 

Pay it forward

Is the purpose of life so self-willed?

 A race for money

and ending with endless guilt.

The guilt of not doing what my heart said to me 

But busied myself living others' dreams.

And soon a thought clouded my mind

Ocean of my conscience 

holding 2 raindrops

pay it forward or pay it back.

The choice was mine.

I made my rainbow of happiness with 

Pay it forward drop

And deserted to dry

The Pay it back raindrop.

Two fireflies like eyes gleaming and sparkling

seeing through the doors of thunders.

Looking for a streak of hope to enter

And wishing hard for the weather to change,

For night turning to a day.

Two eyes so tired, alone, and helpless.

Walked in me with my rainbow of happiness

To make their day, gay and shiny like the sun 

Paying it forward for all what I have 

For all what I can do in my might.

I cannot change the weather for them 

but can open the door of thunder for some time.

Let the frightened firefly set free for a while

to the world of hopes and desires even if it is for a few hours. 

Pay it forward with your skills and your smiles

It may be small but can make big difference in someone's life.

                        -Aarushi

I broke my house

 In a sunlit field

under the galaxy of stars

I built my house and I called it home.

Where the Walls of emotions

holding the Roof of thoughts.

Where Doors of desires

welcoming Guests of preconceived notions.

Where Windows of fake wisdom

were draped in the curtains of confused psyche.

My ideal place to thrive.

Everything under my control.

I was happily playing inside.

One day life naturally unfolds

It shook my world upside down.

I RAN OUT OF LIGHT

in my house so tightly packed.

Nothing can escape and nothing can enter

against my will, opposing my wishes.

The darkness I fought

with all my fiery might.

This place my home

which I called my whole world.

In the whirlpool of wisdom

my world was twirling and shattering in pieces.

I ran to fix the walls

but the storm was so strong

Broke the wall open,

roof came tumbling down.

And I found I was incredulously wrong

The warmth of nature

The light of the galaxy

The light of the sun

were waiting for me with open arms.

True happiness wasn’t far.

There was light so bright everywhere.

The darkness has vanished.

I broke my home with my own hands.

I was truly enlightened

when I banished the

house of doubts, fear, and desire.

                                    Aarushi Agrawal

Forget it

I tried once
I tried twice
Then I understood something
Just like a wise
Do not disturb you forever and ever
And please don't disturb me whatsoever.
This is not a warning
But my humble advice.

Show me some signs
Let your action speak loud
If you wanna keep in touch
Just slough off all your proud

Speak your heart honest
and listen to your soul
And make it very lucid
if any grudge you hold

Relations and caress
Can how to be taken for granted
Will you make me understand
What made your style slanted

Surprise me  your actions
and amaze me your thoughts
How can you forget me
Love me or love me not.

                                            - Aarushi

My day during distance learning

When the day starts at 5

and never-ending it looks

My life hanging intricately

On four beautiful hooks

My bony legs are taking a stroll

In every nook n cranny

My hands are holding in prayer

Wishing to call a nanny.

My eager eyes are wobbly

Want to capture every scene in every room

This house badly needs cleaning

Can someone hand me the broom?

My fiery fingers working fast

They chopping rolling frying

My “always hungry” belligerent boys

Are fighting whining and crying

My multi-chambered brain is in smithereens

I figured one is not enough

If I can borrow someone else’s

To handle the add-on stuff

My one and only torso

Is no less than Pisa leaning tower

Bending stooping to check their homework’s

By 2 o’clock I m out of power

Google meets and reminder alarms

Are music to my ears.

Filled my house, filled my soul

The music I loathe to hear.

It’s time for some recharging

My body and my soul

Tea is for my salvation

And napping is my midday goal

20 minutes later

New body and new me

I m ready to enter phase 2

My parts are thankful n glee

My day is like time

No start has no stop.

4 Hooks in my life are

My kids, my job, fiesta food

and my never-leaving-me mop.

                                            - Aarushi