Pay it forward

Is the purpose of life so self-willed?

 A race for money

and ending with endless guilt.

The guilt of not doing what my heart said to me 

But busied myself living others' dreams.

And soon a thought clouded my mind

Ocean of my conscience 

holding 2 raindrops

pay it forward or pay it back.

The choice was mine.

I made my rainbow of happiness with 

Pay it forward drop

And deserted to dry

The Pay it back raindrop.

Two fireflies like eyes gleaming and sparkling

seeing through the doors of thunders.

Looking for a streak of hope to enter

And wishing hard for the weather to change,

For night turning to a day.

Two eyes so tired, alone, and helpless.

Walked in me with my rainbow of happiness

To make their day, gay and shiny like the sun 

Paying it forward for all what I have 

For all what I can do in my might.

I cannot change the weather for them 

but can open the door of thunder for some time.

Let the frightened firefly set free for a while

to the world of hopes and desires even if it is for a few hours. 

Pay it forward with your skills and your smiles

It may be small but can make big difference in someone's life.

                        -Aarushi

I broke my house

 In a sunlit field

under the galaxy of stars

I built my house and I called it home.

Where the Walls of emotions

holding the Roof of thoughts.

Where Doors of desires

welcoming Guests of preconceived notions.

Where Windows of fake wisdom

were draped in the curtains of confused psyche.

My ideal place to thrive.

Everything under my control.

I was happily playing inside.

One day life naturally unfolds

It shook my world upside down.

I RAN OUT OF LIGHT

in my house so tightly packed.

Nothing can escape and nothing can enter

against my will, opposing my wishes.

The darkness I fought

with all my fiery might.

This place my home

which I called my whole world.

In the whirlpool of wisdom

my world was twirling and shattering in pieces.

I ran to fix the walls

but the storm was so strong

Broke the wall open,

roof came tumbling down.

And I found I was incredulously wrong

The warmth of nature

The light of the galaxy

The light of the sun

were waiting for me with open arms.

True happiness wasn’t far.

There was light so bright everywhere.

The darkness has vanished.

I broke my home with my own hands.

I was truly enlightened

when I banished the

house of doubts, fear, and desire.

                                    Aarushi Agrawal