Wednesday, November 4, 2015

My life

First you criticize
And I change
When I change 
You criticize again
You gripe and blame
Of me not being the same.
Not the whole
A part of me 
You want to change.
I am what I am
When people are around.
You seem so strange 
U let me out of bound.
When u and me 
Are in the house alone.
Change of heart
Replaced by a stone.
We share a parasitic relationship here.
Parasite you and I m your host
You kill me everyday
Nags and comments you croak
But it is not a crime.
It is part of life.
Crime is to compromise 
my thoughts and my beliefs. 
I adapt to survive changes 
But my outlook is my relief.



Tuesday, September 29, 2015

Song of soul

Give wings to your imagination and then take a ride, of my this piece of work. 
Just imagine our souls(passengers) with their bodies(baggage) are on a life(airplane) journey. The karmas(vests) and the spiritual knowledge of karmas( manual for vest operation and emergency  landing) are the inevitable but innately ignored parts of the journey. The poem is composed by the soul and recited by the soul and not by the body. 

My body is a baggage of 
dreadful desires and emotions.
endless expectations, 
and preconceived notions.

(The soul is ruminating of its body as what it has been filled up with, over the time. The soul is taking the life journey with an emotionally brimmed body)

On the airplane of life 
my bag should weigh less.
So, to relish the journey (un)planned.
and freedom from stress.

( the soul has a realization that it should keep minimal desires and expectations in its body, in order to enjoy the life journey and keeping the worries at bay )

Share the limits of space with others 
My bag is on the plane.
Weather inflicting its rage in thunder
All bags are in pensive pain.

( In life, we all are very intrusive and we let and we do sneak in the personal space of others. Happenings in our lives may effect everyone related to us or who is a part of our journey. They being so close to share the moments of bright and plight with us.)


The plane has turned into an oscillating pendulum.
The overhead lights are flickering fireflies.
A Fine art exhibition is a flea market instead. 
Hear baggage claimer's hue and cry.

(At the time of quandary, when our life is out of our hands and it's chaotic inside out then no matter how suave, sophisticated and refined life you have been living, you will start making noises, you will fight, struggle with everyone and your whole life may seem to be chaotic and  barbaric like a flea market.)


Seat number, age and gender are trivial.
Menial are caste and creed.
No matter how rich, no matter how poor
Death is not unfair, sure-fire way to freed.

(Irrespective of any parameter in this world, the death does the work. and nothing else but above all the death is inescapable and no matter how big is your bank balance, you can't lure the death and buy some more time from it)


Orphaned vests and fostered manuals 
are only way to help you save.
Leave your baggage, leave your belongings.
Snag a vest, for manual it's too late. 

(The most ignored is the most inevitable part of our journey. Our karmas and the spiritual knowledge to make the right use of karmas is must, so to help us during our predicament. )

Not giving a second thought.
In order to survive 
I pounced on my vestigial vest.
Me lamentably naive.

(But when it's too late in life, you just start reckoning your karmas and in order to work on your reincarnation or on the hell/heaven belief, you behave like a newbie who has no previous knowledge and in haste and hurry nothing works as it is too late already. You look for help around and when see everyone busy with their vests or karmas, it makes you more nervous.)

Journey begins with compulsion 
But end is a choice for all. 
Some intrigues the inevitable(vest and manual)
Piddly love (baggage), some may fall.

( the human life is an imposition . The kind of person we are, the family we born in, our country, gender, status and a lot of parameters are not in our control and we r born with these mandatory tags. But our ending is entirely in our hands. Either we start working on our spiritual knowledge so to make our next birth better and question ourselves and search answers for the real purpose of this life or else busy ourselves falling in love with our bodies,  be a party animal and keep ourselves engrossed in our so called "fast moving interesting lives".  Choice is ours )

The news flashed fast, around the world of sympathies.
A plane has crashed and then years have passed.
Vanished from memories, now missing from talks.
NOTHING in this world stay forever and nothing do last.

( every human, every life journey has an end. People cross our paths. We make memories together but nothing lasts forever. People move on and memories start to fade away. What remains is our soul , looking for salvation, through bodies. If they begin the journey with "right" spiritual knowledge of karmas,  they will reincarnate and get another body or opportunity to salve, just like the knowledge of vests can help us at the time of plight in the flight or else nothing can save our poor souls.) 

Tuesday, April 7, 2015

Life is a ............


Life is a butcher shop 
where animals of 
ego and proud.
They stink, they cry 
so blatant so loud. 
They need to be tamed or 
must be maimed,
for the sake of 
peace, in human relations.
You feast on your beast 
a call for a treat.
Calf of snob and smug's foul
 You slaughter them all 
to run your shop (life)


Life is a classroom 
where experiences are, the
teachers who are classified, as 
easy and hard, 
The later will stand you,
stoic and strong 
but easy teacher preach that,
life is not so wrong.
Every day every moment,
is a question in a test,
where teachings of the teacher 
will surface your best.

Life is a beauty salon,
where makeovers 
cleanse and change,
 your thoughts and perspective,
may vary, can be strange.
Temporary makeups, of 
adjustments and compromises, 
are must to survive, 
occasional surprises.
The blemishes of 
fault finding, are 
rouged of foundation, of 
empathy and trust.
No matter how beautiful, 
you inside out are, but 
visit and grooming of,
every soul is must. 

Life is a vacation home 
where nothing is that,
you call your own.
You enjoy 
nook and corner, of 
arrangement of stones,
but you are on vacations, 
no friends all alone.
It brims you with pleasure but 
sinks you with responsibility. 
We rented this home (body or life).
This god's unique creation.
Purge your rental 
both inside and out, (soul & body)
before leaving and 
looking for, 
next vacation home.

                       Aarushi Agrawal "honey"


Friday, March 13, 2015

Caged soul


The corners of my weeping heart 
are filled with fears and despairs.
I am missing something, someone special,
 feel goosebumps in the layers.

Blood of nervousness flows and
gushes, in my nerves and my veins.
The feeling of being left alone,
leaves my body drop dead drained.

Hair of anxiety and worries,
are growing, so thick and very fast.
I hope, the hapless period of growth
is not very long, and will not last. 

Thundering tears of worries and tensions,
have cupped my eyes and throat.
Glad of them being, colorless and no odor,
or pillows would have clamored stories untold.

I wish, the beats of my hasty heart 
make some waves of desperation.
You ought to feel the pain of my cravings
in the period of distance and separation. 

They amuse they accuse, my emotions my thoughts,
They can not hear the sound of my soul.
Ears of patience , eyes of emancipation 
Needed to fathom, my inner voice toll.

I loathe at times, myself for carrying,
 genes of tolerance and patience.
Now traits of wisdom are, traits of wimpy.
Me a mere mistake, in god's sheer creation.

My soul feels lonely, broken and tired 
of proving and pretending, relations of the world .
Me waiting, for some miracle to happen.
Freedom from reality, for my caged soul bird.

Aarushi Agrawal "honey"

Monday, February 23, 2015

They are my friends


numero1
She broaches life every time I call 
and our serious talks take so long.
Life lessons can't limit to hours
A friend who talks the language of a monk.

numero 2
This one is ingenious at public speaking 
organizing events and parties.
Beauty and brain wrapped in one 
her "welcome", is heartfelt and hearty.

numero 3
 She is my sister; she is my savior 
So many savory recipes she shares. 
Family discussions are made at times 
One who genuinely gingerly cares.

numero 4
She is finicky, finding faults 
surprisingly in her own creations.
Her exemplary friendship, a proof of forgiveness, 
reaching the zenith of perfect patience.

She is oozing energy in her actions 
her frolics, laughs, and giggles.
Living her life "who cares, she dares"
Splurging on shopping and never niggles.

She is one hardworking, soul I know 
who made her way, her life her own.
An acing company, she goes for work 
but keeps a distance from her phone.

This one is so simple in her looks,
and thoughts are honest and clear. 
Her pleasure travels are, myriad and vivid
Content comrade, who is unlike her peers.

She didn't change with time and influence.
Keeps a mindset of her own.
A truly content, confident soul 
"Sheer street smart" as what she is known.

She is my avid, assuring asylum 
at times of plaguey plight.
Her nature is so, calm and serene
 but she mentors, to fight for the rights.


They are my friends 
unique in their traits.
Priceless moments and 
memories we make.
They are my mentors.
I soak what I like.
Discount what I hate.
They are my friends.
They are my fate.
       
                        Aarushi Agrawal "honey"

Monday, February 2, 2015

My unborn girl child



I know in my heart 
the deep desire to have you
in my thoughts
in my womb
in my arms someday 
would have flamed an argument with the God.
You are my unborn girl child.

I know your pristine pious soul 
have pleaded so hard 
to be in my life 
to be my girl 
to be in my world 
would have whirled his world of justice.
You are my unborn girl child.

I know his callous robust reply 
unveiling sheer strident truth of the world 
is depraved
is ostentatious
is a dreadful place 
would have shattered your soul's hope.
You are my unborn girl child.

I know your absence 
from my life 
missing on feminism 
missing on gossips 
missing on emotions 
will enshroud me in"incomplete mom" plight.
You are my unborn girl child.

I know in my brain 
the deep fear of bringing you 
in the world of wolves (rapists)
in the world of man (gender discrimination)
in the world of blame (to have a girl child)
 has debilitated my desire to conceive you.
You are my unborn girl child.

What I don't know 
is the way, to admit to you
being missed 
being sought
being craved everyday
will keep my eyes soaked in tears.
You are my unborn girl child.

                  Aarushi Agrawal "honey"


Friday, January 23, 2015

Declaration

I am, what I am
Don't want to be judged
You hear me right
You hear me loud
I am a complacent
not carved to tout
of my achievements in the past
and my life at present
I am, what I am
who resting on her laurels
Do you have a problem??
With my life and my style 
Do you have questions??
Why I never get riled
of staying at home
I would say
I am blessed
One soul out of rest
who living her life
a happy mother and a wife
I am what I am
who don't work for living
for the status or fame
I work for my family
And my passions 
flaming inside
and keeping me alive
in this world of dry and deads
where every other soul
playing very hard
corporate race games
but me one lucky soul
No office to go
No early morning hurry
to get ready in time
No deadlines meet worry
No boss who will whine
I work when I want
I won't when I don't(want to)
No matter what happens
I am not really forced to
work for overtime
raises and appraisals
but I work out of 
sheer love for my family
who pays me in love
and needs me very badly
as I am one and only
whose replacement 
can't be found 
My profile is unique,
accustomed and astound
No one can hire me
if you dare to fire me
instead I bag 
"Best mommy in the world"
Award everyday 
My menial looking services 
worth beyond your afford
My house is my firm
where no one to decide
but me on my terms
My working hours
My salary 
24*7 in love
My worth My work
Can you really snub??
I am what I am
Don't want to be judged.
               
                          Aarushi Agrawal "honey"


Thursday, January 15, 2015

My hello to Mr Phoney



This imaginary poem is about the everyday hypocrisy we see around us and sometimes in us. Introducing an imaginary person named Mr Phoney and certain phony moments from his life.


His cacophonic clamor 
praising myriad of gods 
his list of God 
is humungous
 maa Durga lives in heart 
He reckons to be "religious"
My hello to Mr Phoney 
who killed his daughter 
in womb 
yearning for a boy 
will save him from doom
Demon disguised devout 
say yes to female foeticide 

(He deeply revere the female Indian goddess maa Durga but he loathes a female child and doesn't want one)

2 cleaners visit daily 
to give his house 
a virgin girl look, 
looking for a mate 
who is ready to date 
He reckons to be "immaculate"
My hello to Mr Phoney 
who painting the roadside 
of red tobacco spits
 watering the walls
 overtly pissing outside 
Critter disguised citizen
Litter is his bride


Sunday mornings hurry 
so much to do 
religious discourse waiting 
late for his dating 
with a girl named "values"
He reckons to be "scrupulous "
My hello to Mr Phoney 
who lying on the phone 
pseudo promises 
pseudo praises 
who cheating on his wife 
Adulterer disguised husband
 eating ethics from his life

Day was yesterday 
saw him holding
a banner saying loud
"whipping your wife,
 a greatest sin in life"
He reckons to be "innocent"
My hello to Mr Phoney 
your better-half 
looks no better 
a banner hardly battered 
a walking ghost in night 
she is a horrendous sight
Despicable disguised spouse 
eager to hit and fight

Chastising and rebuking 
his one and only bloodline 
spanking and flogging 
for the pencils 
his blood stole
He reckons to be "fair"
My hello to Mr Phoney 
an owner of 
harrowing childhood 
stealing his taxes as adult
and finding faults in others
Monster disguised father 
anywhere overtly insults .


                         Aarushi Agrawal"honey"

Friday, January 2, 2015

Meet my munchkin


My world with him, can be framed 
as if zoo goes whacky and wild.
All animals can be found in one,
permit me to acquaint my conspicuous child.

Sound sleep interruption, is my pet peeve
as my meerkat rises, early in the morning.
Eyes open wide and upright position,
giving you some kind of robust warning.

It's time to get up, my dear mom
or you know better, I'll bean my body.
Falling very hard, on your face 
and waking you up all dizzy and groggy. 

Growling and grunting, groaning and roaring
my bear on two legs, commence his day.
Relentlessly hunting, for his hidden treasure,
a vagabond and his awkward gait.

Scouting, searching and rapid scooting
staring and scampering to his target.
My tiger strolls myriad of toys, 
snarling and growling on the grass carpet.

Superfluous clambering, up and down.
For him couch is not the limit.
My monkey masters, any art anticipated,
neither he gives up nor he remits.

My sniper fox, walking stealthily in the kitchen,
loves to sneak around.
Flying onion peels and scattering platter,
he is busy in pound and hound.

Can be spot sometimes, under the table,
his treasure is all lurid scattered litter.
Like a slimy surreptitious, serpent does,
he slithers and he skitters.

Locking his desire, in brain and his eyes,
no matter if love birds( him and his desire), sitting miles apart.
Chirping twittering and flying so high,
persistence will bless him, what occupies his heart.

Aarushi Agrawal "honey"