wave sojourn

 Have you seen a wave in the wilderness?

Crashing on the shores with its bubbly smile.

Gentle breezing, chasing, amazing.

Bringing  a lot of  disgusting seaweeds out

but sometimes precious pearls it touts.

Dancing, prancing, acting this wave

One day brought a tsunami in my town.

Screaming, shouting, scaring, and doubting.

This wave tumbled the world around.

Left was nothing some dead people and some broken houses.

There was no shore, there was no wave.

I keenly looked around, and I'm glad I found

Dancing, prancing, acting this wave

in a blue lake, so quiet, no whispers were made.

No more shores, no more crashing

Living in the deepest point in the lake.

The time is gone and the memories are made.

The wave has moved from ocean to lake.

                                                            - Aarushi

chattering clouds

 There goes a rabbit.

There goes a dragon

with a tail in the end

and chasing my rabbit until they all go poooooof.

There goes the witch. 

There goes her broom.

she is flying on her own

and looking for her broom until they all go pooooooof.

There go the horses.

There goes the rider

with reins in his hands

and riding them fast until they all go poooooof.

On this sunny day, 

I am lying on my back, in the arms of a rooftop

holding me like a baby, like a feather so light.

With no agenda and no reason, I am looking at the sky.

Those passing by clouds are chatterbox and trying to talk to me.

Little Girl

 A small girl in a big town

had big dreams in her small mind.

Her hopes were vast like the ocean

she has never seen but imagined for real.

Her plans were so shiny and clear

like the jewels, she has never wore

And one day she ran into something 

she ran away from, her entire life.

And one day she landed on earth 

after living on planets incredible and unknown.

And one day the unseen ocean was deserted

the jewels got robbed, belonged to no one.

She screamed she cursed, she abused, and the worse

She believed no more the planet she belonged to,

 the ocean she never saw, and the jewels she never wore.

The whirlpool of events brought her inside out.

The unfamiliar truths she gets to know of herself.

Daringly facing her truths has instigated that spark.

She is now whole new, doesn't matter what was her past.

No dreams, no hopes are enough to fill her eyes

She found her own ocean and true jewels in disguise

What a relief, what a moment

When she met with herself after don't know, how many births and how many lives.

                    

                                                                                        Aarushi

Wild Wind

 When fall is the only season

in the town I live. 

Leaves of all kinds drew a rainbow on the ground.

I see that man raking so patiently and passionately

amidst no soul, however, can be found.

I wonder what's driving him or is he driving crazy?

To check I passed close by and heard him humming some tune. 

A tune of infinite joy - no hope, no pain, no pleasure, no gain.

Envious, curious, furious me, wanted to crush him under my feet.

How can you be so eternally happy in insanely lonely weather like this?

With a blink of an eye, his hat said goodbye, and the beautiful reclined rainbow sat upright.

He tightly held his faith and rake 

And the shaking ground he stood on.

No one around and I passed by him again to check on what was left.

To my surprise, I heard him so clear

humming the tune of infinite joy- no hope, no despair, no pleasure, no fear.

This time the tune was contagiously joyful.

It made me do the eternal dance.

I danced on his tune and tamed and turned to a gentle breeze.

                                                                    - Aarushi

Soul call

Soul Call

(It's cajoling turning into an implore by a human soul who is requesting to be heard soon before it's too late). 

If

Give me 1000 wings to fly in the sky 

but not let your deep-seated desires make me cry.

Give me 1000 eyes to satiate those desires 

but don’t let your greed just burn me in that fire.

Give me 1000 fins to make me swim that lustful lake 

but don’t let your attachment put end to my fate.

Give me 1000 hands to win this love battle 

but don’t let your anger, break me and starkly shatter

Give me 1000 hearts to diffuse determination in this world 

but don’t let your envy, make me spin and swirl.

Now,

Give me ambrosia of knowledge to quench my spiritual thirst 

but don’t let your ego and ‘I’, inflate me and burst.

Give me the anchor of hope to touch those heights 

but don’t let your envy lead to my plight.

Give radiant, fall shades of your personality to deck my inside out

 but don’t let your uppity take me down and crouch.

Give me your mountainous courage to thrive triumphantly among all the odds 

but don’t let your supercilious side win and make me sob.

Give me your inflaming curiosity to dive deep into the thoughts you crave

but don’t let your boastful diver make me shiver or escape.

Although

I may not be heard or seen 

Only your good deeds, I can preen

In your dreams, I struggle to meet you with yourself

Only your conscious will find me, the deeper you delve.

I am lying and sleeping in layers so deep

Only your awakening can make us ever meet.

The thread of consciousness connects us so strong.

But I am held responsible for whatever you do wrong.

YOU

Curb your desires and listen to your heart decree

Strengthen the belief of ONLY I can set you free.

Dont ignore my request, my implore, my plea

As for sure I'll survive and one day you'll flee. 

                                                                                            - Aarushi

Infinite

 My love is forever

My desires are endless

My hopes are constant

My dreams are seamless

Wait! All this is a big lie

In my finite face.

If my existence is limited

How is it even possible 

To love desire hope dream

Infinite like this universe.

My search for something is beyond this all.

                                                                -Aarushi

Spears of Fears

 I have a fear

or should I say fears

Fear in you, fear in me

keeps the world going in peace

Fear of hunger for food and love

Fear of being alone in this world

Fear of losing the I in me

Fear of gaining that shameful feel.

Fear of me vanishing one day

Fear of you leaving me alone

Fear of us leaving this world

Fear of them who believing a stone (murti-pooja)

Fear of not being heard and valued

Fear of being judged and boxed

Fear of not being good enough

Fear of being rejected and refused

Fear is what driving this world

You drink, you party, you lust for body

You call it busy but you passing your time

to forget that fear and escape the real.

Fear of death is bringing me close

To what we call heaven on the earth

Fear of death is taking me away

To reasons why I took this human birth.

            

                                                                    Aarushi

living on the edge

 On a bright sunny day

I went to a zoo

A tiger seemed restless, confined in his cage.

His fury met the fence

and it held his hunger and rage.

Stopped were the roars

And he turned his wild gaze.

Come flying his meat

What a scrumptious feast!

Serene and calm was looking this wild beast

Made me pause and wonder

what made him love his cage?

Fear, insecurity, or conditioning

Is mind playing some games?

No matter if living in comfort

You given a treatment of king

True freedom is something

A cage cannot bring in.

Expand your comfort zone

Instead of your cage(mansion)

Where entire day fits in easily

and mind doesn't say anything.

One day will come 

when you love to live on your edges

As these are your ways to your freedom.

You go beyond all your walls of fears

come by laugh or tears

No boundary can limit you

As you are truth 

An infinite and sheer.

                                                                Aarushi

liberation from love

 Where thoughts are bolder than actions

where love is stronger than hatred

where EQ score higher than IQ

where freedom of speech is your birthright

where values are valued over rituals

where fearless conversations can happen anytime

where differences are discussed and not argued

where respect and honor reflect in care

where "I" has never made its way in

where words are few but expressions are many

where love means liberation from love.

                                                                        -Aarushi

Broke my house

 In a sunlit field

Under the galaxy of stars

I built my house and I called it home.

Where the Wall of emotions

holding the Roof of thoughts.

Where Doors of desires

welcoming guests of preconceived notions.

Where Windows of fake wisdom

were draped in Curtains of confused psyche.

My ideal place to thrive.

Everything under my control.

I was very happily playing inside.

When life naturally unfolded

It shook my world upside down. 

One day I ran out of light

in my house so tightly packed 

of me and me everywhere.

Nothing can escape and nothing can enter

against my will, opposing my wishes.

The darkness I fought

with all my fiery might

This place 'my home'

which I called my whole world.

In the whirlpool of wisdom

My world my twirling and shattering in pieces.

I ran to fix the walls

but the storm was so strong

Broke the wall open 

And I found I was wrong

The warmth of nature 

The lights of the stars

were waiting patiently for me with open arms.

True happiness wasn't far.

There was light and light everywhere.

The darkness has vanished

I broke my home with my own hands

I was truly enlightened

When I banished the house of doubts and fear.

                                                                                    - Aarushi

Take Away

 Take away these words

Take away these letters

I don't need a language

as it has only shattered

my peace, my truth, my soul

They all created a hole in my whole.

Look at these birds

Looks at these trees

No words, no expressions

living a life complain-free.

In the world we all share

They chitchat, love, fight, move on and they don't care.

Take away these memories

Take away these bondages

I made on my life journey

They seized my inner peace and persistent patience

My poise, my mind, my focus

disturbed to an end where there is no return.

Look at the rivers

Look at the waterfalls

No memories, no relations

The adventurous journey is battle-free

In the world we all share

They jump in the ocean, smilingly suicide with the dare.

                                                                                                - Aarushi

I am still looking for........

 I am not sad

but tremendously glad and happy.

A continuous flow of contentment in my heart

desire free is my world. 

Eminent emotions are stabilized

no twists no turns.

An open book is this life

and the pages you can read.

No unknown passion or dream comes true

left as a seed.

I got more than I could ever dream.

Deeply in gratitude, blissful at the seams.

You name it I have it

the memories I made on this life journey.

Some shiny like stars

Some dark like shades

Nothing to crave, crib, or complain

All I have are countless blessings in safe

But this emptiness lies deep in this heart

like a bottomless ocean

like a vacuum in space

like the lonely number zero

like a vicious life-circle chase

Something is missing and I am still looking for......

                                                        

                                                                                    - Aarushi 

Nature Talking

 The wind whispers

The storm shrieks

The mountain mourns

The cloud cajoles

The river requests

The ocean oomphs

The fire fosters

O human-'doing' you lost your 'being'

to make your existence happen 

to make your presence felt

to make this planet look heaven or hell.

O human-'doing' you lost your 'being'

we are here before you ever existed

you build your play

you step into your role

you enter, you exit

you on short-term parole.

O human-'doing' you lost your 'being'

you call it evolution

what you need is involution

you born with nothing

you die taking nothing

you don't even know 

where did you come from?

you don't even know 

where will you go?

O human-'doing' you lost your 'being'

                                                - Aarushi

Happy birthday to me

Hi mom and dad

Thank you both to bring me in this world

Thank you both to share with me all your wisdom pearls

The pearl of patience

The pearl of joy 

The pearl of contentment 

The pearl of enjoy(life)

Thank you both to express your love in actions more than the words

Thank you both to take care of me like a delicate tiny helpless bird

Thank you both to give me a lovingly,safe, memorable childhood 

Thank you both to give me that eye which sees no evil but only good n good( in people and situations)

Thank you both to raise me as your priority and keeping my preferences first 

Thank you both to share the quality of zipping your mouth when situation gets worst

Thank you both to never make me feel my gender, my color, my interests, my choices

Thank you both to teach me love without expectations but if needed then raise your voices

Thank you both to help me grow wings of independence and fly very high

Thank you both to support me unconditionally in my failure and in my blues n cries

Thank you both to love me unconditionally no matter how the world turned against me

Thank you both to perform your roles every time with so much joy and glee.

When life is flowing against my wish 

I learned to maintain my father-given poise(balance)

When world is flowing against the truth 

I learned to bring out my mother-given voice

My sprightful body, my hale and hearty internal organs

Are filled with gratitude

Saying thank you to daddy 

For that “take care of yourself first” attitude 

My certificates, achievements, my hopes and spark 

Are filled with gratitude 

Saying thank you to mommy

For that “WOMAN can do anything at any age” attitude

I must express my love before it’s too late

I feel so blessed, my handsome parents your parenting is great 

I can vouch on this observation- 

“Teach your kids through actions, not just preach in words.

We kids realize the power of upbringing when we empty the nest and fly like a bird.”

My life story

 My life story 

I am so tiny

Microscopic in origin 

Where did I come from 

No one will know and no one to believe 

I am so widespread 

An international itinerant

On you, in you 

Entered the world you lived in for eternity

I am so fatal

My Love is contiguous 

A Friend or fiend 

No racist no biased no bigotry like humans

I am so memorable

My survivor instincts

A killer or reliever ( from long-life pains)

Going deep down in the human history

I am so awakened 

My spiritual aspect

Spiky or round (like yin and yan)

I made it happen the Insightful Realization of human birth 

This is your puny, vagabond, close lover COVID-19

                                        Aarushi 

Apology

 I am sitting on a beach 

And admiring nature’s work.

I m loitering in my thoughts 

And scanning with a smirk.

My eyes stopped and met

Few limbs slithering on the sand.

Body parts joined incorrectly.

Was god inebriated or some kind of revenge? 

But the twisted torso holding head so high

Goggle on and no complain no shy

The lustful eyes I am wearing on me

Started to well in the tears of repent

I couldn’t believe 

How could I hate my fate?

How could I be a selfish mate?

How could I take my body soul for granted?

How could I ask for more than I ever wanted?

Then n there the attitude of gratitude took over me

I felt the tinge of remorse

I am sorry for asking more 

I am sorry for acting like a whore.

My desires, my fears,  and my ego of taking no rejection.

I was bashful, remorseful, and regretful so deeply

That My soul instantly apologized this universe 

This life is an opportunity and not a curse.

Do what you love and if you can’t 

Then love what you do.

                                            Aarushi 

ए माँ तेरी छाँव में हम बच्चे ही रह गए

ए माँ तेरी छाँव में

हम बच्चे ही रह गये

जमाने ने पकड़ाया हमें झूठ का दामन

पर हम जमाने में अकेले और सच्चे ही रह गए 

 ए माँ तेरी छाँव में हम बच्चे ही रह गए 

समझदारों की भीड़ में खो दिया अपने आपको 

फिर भी ना जाने क्यूँ हम कच्चे ही रह गए 

ए माँ तेरी छाँव में हम बच्चे ही रह गए 

सही ग़लत का तालाब मेरा ख़ाली और सूखा था 

उन ग़लतियों के तालाब को हम भरे चले गए

ए माँ तेरी छाँव में हम बच्चे ही रह गए 

अहसानो से ज़्यादा अहसासों पर ज़ोर था

पर नादानियों के बोझ तले हम दबते रह गये

ए माँ तेरी छाँव में हम बच्चे ही रह गए 

दिल की मिलकियत जब कर गयी फ़तह दिमाग़ी बाज़ियों को 

ए दिल ए आशिक़ हम सब सितम सह गए 

ए माँ तेरी छाँव में हम बच्चे ही रह गए 

जिसके दीदार को तरसती थी आँखें 

वो ढूँढते थे आंसू और हम हँसते ही रह गए

ए माँ तेरी छाँव में हम बच्चे ही रह गए 

अब बदल गए वो जिन्होंने बदली थी मेरी दुनिया

सितम ग़र आशिक़ ना कहकर भी सब कुछ कह गये

ए माँ तेरी छाँव में हम बच्चे ही रह गए