Take Away

 Take away these words

Take away these letters

I don't need a language

as it has only shattered

my peace, my truth, my soul

They all created a hole in my whole.

Look at these birds

Looks at these trees

No words, no expressions

living a life complain-free.

In the world we all share

They chitchat, love, fight, move on and they don't care.

Take away these memories

Take away these bondages

I made on my life journey

They seized my inner peace and persistent patience

My poise, my mind, my focus

disturbed to an end where there is no return.

Look at the rivers

Look at the waterfalls

No memories, no relations

The adventurous journey is battle-free

In the world we all share

They jump in the ocean, smilingly suicide with the dare.

                                                                                                - Aarushi

I am still looking for........

 I am not sad

but tremendously glad and happy.

A continuous flow of contentment in my heart

desire free is my world. 

Eminent emotions are stabilized

no twists no turns.

An open book is this life

and the pages you can read.

No unknown passion or dream comes true

left as a seed.

I got more than I could ever dream.

Deeply in gratitude, blissful at the seams.

You name it I have it

the memories I made on this life journey.

Some shiny like stars

Some dark like shades

Nothing to crave, crib, or complain

All I have are countless blessings in safe

But this emptiness lies deep in this heart

like a bottomless ocean

like a vacuum in space

like the lonely number zero

like a vicious life-circle chase

Something is missing and I am still looking for......

                                                        

                                                                                    - Aarushi 

Nature Talking

 The wind whispers

The storm shrieks

The mountain mourns

The cloud cajoles

The river requests

The ocean oomphs

The fire fosters

O human-'doing' you lost your 'being'

to make your existence happen 

to make your presence felt

to make this planet look heaven or hell.

O human-'doing' you lost your 'being'

we are here before you ever existed

you build your play

you step into your role

you enter, you exit

you on short-term parole.

O human-'doing' you lost your 'being'

you call it evolution

what you need is involution

you born with nothing

you die taking nothing

you don't even know 

where did you come from?

you don't even know 

where will you go?

O human-'doing' you lost your 'being'

                                                - Aarushi

Happy birthday to me

Hi mom and dad

Thank you both to bring me in this world

Thank you both to share with me all your wisdom pearls

The pearl of patience

The pearl of joy 

The pearl of contentment 

The pearl of enjoy(life)

Thank you both to express your love in actions more than the words

Thank you both to take care of me like a delicate tiny helpless bird

Thank you both to give me a lovingly,safe, memorable childhood 

Thank you both to give me that eye which sees no evil but only good n good( in people and situations)

Thank you both to raise me as your priority and keeping my preferences first 

Thank you both to share the quality of zipping your mouth when situation gets worst

Thank you both to never make me feel my gender, my color, my interests, my choices

Thank you both to teach me love without expectations but if needed then raise your voices

Thank you both to help me grow wings of independence and fly very high

Thank you both to support me unconditionally in my failure and in my blues n cries

Thank you both to love me unconditionally no matter how the world turned against me

Thank you both to perform your roles every time with so much joy and glee.

When life is flowing against my wish 

I learned to maintain my father-given poise(balance)

When world is flowing against the truth 

I learned to bring out my mother-given voice

My sprightful body, my hale and hearty internal organs

Are filled with gratitude

Saying thank you to daddy 

For that “take care of yourself first” attitude 

My certificates, achievements, my hopes and spark 

Are filled with gratitude 

Saying thank you to mommy

For that “WOMAN can do anything at any age” attitude

I must express my love before it’s too late

I feel so blessed, my handsome parents your parenting is great 

I can vouch on this observation- 

“Teach your kids through actions, not just preach in words.

We kids realize the power of upbringing when we empty the nest and fly like a bird.”

My life story

 My life story 

I am so tiny

Microscopic in origin 

Where did I come from 

No one will know and no one to believe 

I am so widespread 

An international itinerant

On you, in you 

Entered the world you lived in for eternity

I am so fatal

My Love is contiguous 

A Friend or fiend 

No racist no biased no bigotry like humans

I am so memorable

My survivor instincts

A killer or reliever ( from long-life pains)

Going deep down in the human history

I am so awakened 

My spiritual aspect

Spiky or round (like yin and yan)

I made it happen the Insightful Realization of human birth 

This is your puny, vagabond, close lover COVID-19

                                        Aarushi 

Apology

 I am sitting on a beach 

And admiring nature’s work.

I m loitering in my thoughts 

And scanning with a smirk.

My eyes stopped and met

Few limbs slithering on the sand.

Body parts joined incorrectly.

Was god inebriated or some kind of revenge? 

But the twisted torso holding head so high

Goggle on and no complain no shy

The lustful eyes I am wearing on me

Started to well in the tears of repent

I couldn’t believe 

How could I hate my fate?

How could I be a selfish mate?

How could I take my body soul for granted?

How could I ask for more than I ever wanted?

Then n there the attitude of gratitude took over me

I felt the tinge of remorse

I am sorry for asking more 

I am sorry for acting like a whore.

My desires, my fears,  and my ego of taking no rejection.

I was bashful, remorseful, and regretful so deeply

That My soul instantly apologized this universe 

This life is an opportunity and not a curse.

Do what you love and if you can’t 

Then love what you do.

                                            Aarushi 

ए माँ तेरी छाँव में हम बच्चे ही रह गए

ए माँ तेरी छाँव में

हम बच्चे ही रह गये

जमाने ने पकड़ाया हमें झूठ का दामन

पर हम जमाने में अकेले और सच्चे ही रह गए 

 ए माँ तेरी छाँव में हम बच्चे ही रह गए 

समझदारों की भीड़ में खो दिया अपने आपको 

फिर भी ना जाने क्यूँ हम कच्चे ही रह गए 

ए माँ तेरी छाँव में हम बच्चे ही रह गए 

सही ग़लत का तालाब मेरा ख़ाली और सूखा था 

उन ग़लतियों के तालाब को हम भरे चले गए

ए माँ तेरी छाँव में हम बच्चे ही रह गए 

अहसानो से ज़्यादा अहसासों पर ज़ोर था

पर नादानियों के बोझ तले हम दबते रह गये

ए माँ तेरी छाँव में हम बच्चे ही रह गए 

दिल की मिलकियत जब कर गयी फ़तह दिमाग़ी बाज़ियों को 

ए दिल ए आशिक़ हम सब सितम सह गए 

ए माँ तेरी छाँव में हम बच्चे ही रह गए 

जिसके दीदार को तरसती थी आँखें 

वो ढूँढते थे आंसू और हम हँसते ही रह गए

ए माँ तेरी छाँव में हम बच्चे ही रह गए 

अब बदल गए वो जिन्होंने बदली थी मेरी दुनिया

सितम ग़र आशिक़ ना कहकर भी सब कुछ कह गये

ए माँ तेरी छाँव में हम बच्चे ही रह गए