Spears of Fears

 I have a fear

or should I say fears

Fear in you, fear in me

keeps the world going in peace

Fear of hunger for food and love

Fear of being alone in this world

Fear of losing the I in me

Fear of gaining that shameful feel.

Fear of me vanishing one day

Fear of you leaving me alone

Fear of us leaving this world

Fear of them who believing a stone (murti-pooja)

Fear of not being heard and valued

Fear of being judged and boxed

Fear of not being good enough

Fear of being rejected and refused

Fear is what driving this world

You drink, you party, you lust for body

You call it busy but you passing your time

to forget that fear and escape the real.

Fear of death is bringing me close

To what we call heaven on the earth

Fear of death is taking me away

To reasons why I took this human birth.

            

                                                                    Aarushi

living on the edge

 On a bright sunny day

I went to a zoo

A tiger seemed restless, confined in his cage.

His fury met the fence

and it held his hunger and rage.

Stopped were the roars

And he turned his wild gaze.

Come flying his meat

What a scrumptious feast!

Serene and calm was looking this wild beast

Made me pause and wonder

what made him love his cage?

Fear, insecurity, or conditioning

Is mind playing some games?

No matter if living in comfort

You given a treatment of king

True freedom is something

A cage cannot bring in.

Expand your comfort zone

Instead of your cage(mansion)

Where entire day fits in easily

and mind doesn't say anything.

One day will come 

when you love to live on your edges

As these are your ways to your freedom.

You go beyond all your walls of fears

come by laugh or tears

No boundary can limit you

As you are truth 

An infinite and sheer.

                                                                Aarushi

liberation from love

 Where thoughts are bolder than actions

where love is stronger than hatred

where EQ score higher than IQ

where freedom of speech is your birthright

where values are valued over rituals

where fearless conversations can happen anytime

where differences are discussed and not argued

where respect and honor reflect in care

where "I" has never made its way in

where words are few but expressions are many

where love means liberation from love.

                                                                        -Aarushi

Broke my house

 In a sunlit field

Under the galaxy of stars

I built my house and I called it home.

Where the Wall of emotions

holding the Roof of thoughts.

Where Doors of desires

welcoming guests of preconceived notions.

Where Windows of fake wisdom

were draped in Curtains of confused psyche.

My ideal place to thrive.

Everything under my control.

I was very happily playing inside.

When life naturally unfolded

It shook my world upside down. 

One day I ran out of light

in my house so tightly packed 

of me and me everywhere.

Nothing can escape and nothing can enter

against my will, opposing my wishes.

The darkness I fought

with all my fiery might

This place 'my home'

which I called my whole world.

In the whirlpool of wisdom

My world my twirling and shattering in pieces.

I ran to fix the walls

but the storm was so strong

Broke the wall open 

And I found I was wrong

The warmth of nature 

The lights of the stars

were waiting patiently for me with open arms.

True happiness wasn't far.

There was light and light everywhere.

The darkness has vanished

I broke my home with my own hands

I was truly enlightened

When I banished the house of doubts and fear.

                                                                                    - Aarushi

Take Away

 Take away these words

Take away these letters

I don't need a language

as it has only shattered

my peace, my truth, my soul

They all created a hole in my whole.

Look at these birds

Looks at these trees

No words, no expressions

living a life complain-free.

In the world we all share

They chitchat, love, fight, move on and they don't care.

Take away these memories

Take away these bondages

I made on my life journey

They seized my inner peace and persistent patience

My poise, my mind, my focus

disturbed to an end where there is no return.

Look at the rivers

Look at the waterfalls

No memories, no relations

The adventurous journey is battle-free

In the world we all share

They jump in the ocean, smilingly suicide with the dare.

                                                                                                - Aarushi

I am still looking for........

 I am not sad

but tremendously glad and happy.

A continuous flow of contentment in my heart

desire free is my world. 

Eminent emotions are stabilized

no twists no turns.

An open book is this life

and the pages you can read.

No unknown passion or dream comes true

left as a seed.

I got more than I could ever dream.

Deeply in gratitude, blissful at the seams.

You name it I have it

the memories I made on this life journey.

Some shiny like stars

Some dark like shades

Nothing to crave, crib, or complain

All I have are countless blessings in safe

But this emptiness lies deep in this heart

like a bottomless ocean

like a vacuum in space

like the lonely number zero

like a vicious life-circle chase

Something is missing and I am still looking for......

                                                        

                                                                                    - Aarushi 

Nature Talking

 The wind whispers

The storm shrieks

The mountain mourns

The cloud cajoles

The river requests

The ocean oomphs

The fire fosters

O human-'doing' you lost your 'being'

to make your existence happen 

to make your presence felt

to make this planet look heaven or hell.

O human-'doing' you lost your 'being'

we are here before you ever existed

you build your play

you step into your role

you enter, you exit

you on short-term parole.

O human-'doing' you lost your 'being'

you call it evolution

what you need is involution

you born with nothing

you die taking nothing

you don't even know 

where did you come from?

you don't even know 

where will you go?

O human-'doing' you lost your 'being'

                                                - Aarushi